What do you do with huge coincidences. What do you feel, when shit happens that is so unlikely that it feels like magic. Me, I get scared. Or, I have a moment of: how the fuck do I interpret this. But there’s an urgency to it, too. I better do something. This is a message from God. What does it mean. How do I put it to use.
This is what sucks about messages from God. Their ambiguity. What would be nice is if God would give you clear, unfuckupable instructions. Just spell it out. You are God. You could write detailed next steps in flames on my windshield. You could just steer me in the right direction. But it’s wisps, weird half-clues that stand out very clearly for being a message but it’s not at all clear what the message is. You’re left with the feeling that you’ve been communicated to very urgently in another language. Or like a guy yelling at you out of a truck speeding by, and you don’t know if he’s telling you you’re about to step on a rattlesnake or just “nice ass.”