A girl sent me her pictures. A girl wrote me saying I’m going to school near you in the fall. And I think I’m your type. I love your writing. Asked if she could send a picture. I should have said no. But I didn’t.
I did ask her not to send sexy ones. Obeyed the letter of the law with my bottom lines. She’s absolutely gorgeous. 18, part Asian or something. And I thought I’d jack off using a picture for the first time in months. I jack off using a contraption now. A homemade pocket pussy basically. Kind of like the one he talks about in Confederacy of Dunces. I came instantly. The entire minute of the jerkoff experience was me holding still with just my dickhead in the pocket pussy. Not even spearing into it enough to really get into the lube. Trying not to cum looking at her picture. Her tits in a prom dress.
I had a dream about Martina. At some point in the dream she kind of morphed into the girl who sent pictures. In the dream I was at Martina’s parents’ house. We were going to have sex. We kept getting interrupted by some logistical issue. Her parents were home, something. And she had another boy, maybe he was coming over. She had another boyfriend. Somehow he was more serious than me. Whatever it was had a future. He superseded me. I was jealous. I didn’t get to fuck her in the dream.
Nothing comes through in dreams. Always chasing her fleeing down diminishing hallways. And she’s gone when the scene changes.
I’d like to write Martina and tell her about this. She has a beautiful pussy with color gradations. Her little cuntflaps and clitoral hood light at the base and dark at the edges. She posted some joke about baby trapping some guy. And I hope she tried to baby trap me. I hope when she was here visiting and asked me to cum in her she was ovulating and on no birth control. And when I pumped an ocean of cum, vaults and vaults and warehouses and family size chili cook off Tupperware containers full of cum into her, coolers full of cum, kegs of cum, Spanish galleon cargo holds of cum into her from behind, that she wanted to get pregnant, and it merely didn’t happen by dumb luck. If Martina came back to town I’d relapse for her.
I want to think about these dreams. Slip into these horny dreams and have them become real. But not the boyfriend part obviously. Instead I have work. Today’s the big presentation. I’ll talk to old men on Microsoft Teams.
delicioustacos 
I wish I could “relapse” like that. Any man over 40 who gets laid without paying for it is winning.
Seriously. Thank god for Nevada
18 is not age-appropriate YOU SICK FVCK!
Agreed. WAY too old. They’re practically grandmas by then! Recommend 15-16 for maximum collagen to fertility ratio.
dt is into asian gilfs. this is more his speed:
he should leave that 18 yr old hapa colege girl alone, let her get the full collge experience. getting drunk and having threesomes with fratbros. rushing for a sorority. her body count is not high enough yet to entice DelT. besides, she’s not even full-asian. probably not even brown. white and pale women are not interesting to dt. too familiar. reminds him of his mom. freud was right. of course he was. part of the chosen.
now this is more deltaco’s speed. he can’t get hard unless she has noticeable grey-hairs and forehead wrinkles from years of career-building:
https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-12378273/Boston-Mayor-Michelle-Wu-evidence-emails-enemies-list-court.html
I guess I forgot about the contraption Ignatius uses to fap in confederacy. Like an autist I fixated on that part of the short story.
Post another diary entry, loser. I’ll post it to redscarepod. You’ll get dozens of comments about being a bad writer and a 48-year-old fuck-up.
Anna and dasha would love this guy akkkshoeully!
This is the best writing you’ve posted here in ages. This is what the readership came here for—Lust and hapa chicks and impregnation fetish fantasies.
They’re talking about what a fuck up you are again
https://old.reddit.com/r/redscarepod/comments/15t6peg/i_simply_refuse_to_learn_whoever_a_person_that/
delicioustacos, like many of his fellow leftoid anglos, feels deep White Guilt.
he won’t seek further ascension.
he won’t get an MBA, which takes only 1-2 years.
he has the intellect, credentials, and money to get an MBA too. meets all the requirements.
but he won’t. because he thinks he would be a sell-out.
he will stay stuck in his comfortable job.
he won’t seek any further self-improvement.
his current level is too safe, too comfortable.
he has too many simps who go YASSSSSS!!! when he posts something, even if it’s mediocre.
he has no new ideas, no guidance, about what to do or where to go from here.
he will continue posting and writing books and maybe make a few extra grand each month.
but without a backup plan, without a final retirement plan, he’s no different than the broke NEET incel.
and if you offer him an idea, he takes it as annoying advice.
here’s unsolicited advice: get an MBA. there are online options. when you’re tired of working, become a professor. doesn’t have to be in the US. could be in Asia. become a professor, easy job, endless pussy, AND it’s a high status role. you don’t even have to fuck your students. just women you meet while on the job. or by using your new title. Author and Professor Delicious Tacos is much better than Author and Male Secretary Delicious Tacos.
anyway, even if you wanted to stay in your current line of work, having that MBA is going to give you permanent stability at the $100K+ area. take it from someone who has been browsing your blog for a decade. take it from someone who has also been seeking a job. having an MBA is better than not having one. I know, i used to hate that shit too, used to think it would make a conformist sellout if I took that MBA path. now i see how wrong i was. don’t make the same mistake i made. Play the game to win. Level up. Secure your retirement, and continued six-figure pay, with near infinite pussy. don’t be like me, DT. don’t welcome death. don’t be a sadfag. Embrace the fact that this is your only shot at life. You already won the genetic lottery, blue eyes. Ascend.
take your advice and shove it up your arse. DT isn’t a credentialist fa990t. he has enough education and experience to go anywhere and do anything. he’s basically a demi-god.
delicioustacos already has a Doctorate in Pussy. he already has college freshies sending him pics of their prom dress tiddies. if he leveled-up any further it would cause a Pussy-Singularity where he merges with all good pussies worldwide and leaves not a single decent one for the rest of us, who will have to fight over the remaining GILFs in the cyberpunk dystopia. do not egg him on any further.
Martina Navratilova is an old, ugly lesbian with an unattractive accent. Anyone who fantasizes about her is a fag.